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Failure Is Not Final

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Some events are more than just experiences for us, they are life lessons for us. Something recently happened to me in my school which taught me that it is not necessary that what you expect is always going to happen and your opinion about yourself may be not similar to that of others. What it also taught me was that when you fall, you feel miserable and depressive and you often tend to take some momentary decisions which you may regret in the long run. It’s better to get up, dust off the dirt and move on with what life brings along.

The event that I am going to describe to you may be very small and petty for you but it actually meant a lot to me at this point of time. So just bear with my rant.

Our school annually selects its School Executive Council and Prefectorial Board. I was a part of the board with the post of House Representative and I had put in all my efforts to justify me being there. Honestly, I think I had outshone my duty profile and this year I was expecting to become the Literary Captain of my house.

I had applied for the Literary Captain and I passed the Speech Round and then I had an interview with the Principal of our school. It all went quite good and I expected to get this post. I was really anticipating the results.

In a few days, the results were out but I did not get the post!

I was broken and completely shattered. I did get a post lower than what I had applied for but it was not what I desired. The whole day I had been crying in the school and everyone came to calm me. I felt betrayed. All the work I had done for my house felt like null. I felt like a loser. I momentarily took the decision of resigning from the post I was given but I decided to wait for the next day.

I came back home and cried and cried! I know it is a petty issue and that it would have no long term effect in my life but for me right now it was my life. But then I calmed myself and started talking to myself (which is the only way I find peace in such situations).

“What is wrong with you, Upasna? Shut the hell up and stop crying! This is so stupid of you!”

“But I wanted to be the Literary Captain !”(weep, sob, weep)

“It is not necessary that everyone will feel that you deserved that post, okay? Be strong! And remember, this is not the end of the world. there is always a next time”.

” Yes! I know! But I will resign from the post”

“No way, you are not doing anything like that. Justify your post and make them realize that you could have taken the responsibility of the Literary Captain also effortlessly.”

“Yes! I will not resign”

And I did not resign. I am the Prefect of my house and I will justify myself with my actions and not my words. I will rather consider this a success than a failure because anyhow I am a part of the guild and many people have believed and trusted me. I promise I will work exceptionally hards so that the next year I get a way better post.



So,firstly I want my readers to catch up with all the time I could not write. I know that it has been a long time since I have written anything but as the new session started, there were multiple things that I had to tackle and they kept me constantly busy. I accept that I had sidetracked my blog for all these months and I am really sorry about it. My time management tactics seemed to have failed this year. A lot of things have happened with me all this time of which I  will write separately. But I promise to my lovely readers that you are going to get more of me in this upcoming month.

After a long time I opened my WordPress account and I got the news that my blog has turned a year old. It was so pleasing to have this news because this blog is completely my brainchild and it is something which makes me happy!

So, I wish a very very Happy Birthday to ‘Live Out Loud’! and here I go discussing with you my journey.

The Evolution

My first blog post was a quote and it was in an urge to just write something. Then I posted my friendship story and seeing the amount of love I had received by that time, I felt under constant pressure to keep up my standards but I wanted to keep it real. My next post was – Tough Times Never Last, Tough People do and it was about how I had panicked in my Mathematics exam and what learning outcome did I derive from it. However, when I look back, I have now improved a lot in Maths since that day.

My blog post are nothing but an elaborate explanation of the learning outcomes I derive from daily happenings. The insight of each incident and the philosophical side of every occurrence is reflected in my posts.

Since then my graph has an increasing trend which always makes me very happy.

The Things This Blog Has Changed In Me

I started this blog to improve my expression and moreover, I wanted to share my internal processes with someone. In this journey, 41 wonderful people joined me which I never expected. I never expected that my super boring rants would catch someone’s interest but they did. With the evolution of my blog, I have actually become quite expressive and now, I feel confident to share my thoughts. It is all because of you, my wonderful and supportive audience! Thank you guys!

I owe a lot to this blog. It has made me rediscover myself and self introspect. It has made me realize that when you are in your own skin, people love you the most. The amount of encouragement and appreciation I have got has made me quite confident.

But we have a long way to go ahead. So I need best wishes from all of you.

Risking it.!

“Take every risk, to drop every fear.”

Can people find fulfillment and happiness in life by playing it safe and not courting any trouble or hardship from taking chances?

There are a lot of people who take big risks and appear not to be affected by them. But, many of us feel very uneasy when faced with risk-taking; we may become worried about the risk. Although some people are content in life by just playing it safe and not courting any trouble or hardship from taking chances, risk taking is a fundamental part of life and it is necessary in order for us to be happy or at least find happiness. Confidence, Challenge, and Innovation plays a big part in taking risks.

There are people who have to regularly face risks and if they run away from it, this world wouldn’t be this fine. To make my views clearer, I’ll quote the example of a sailor. Everyday he has to sail and has to face the roaring sea or ocean but gradually, he gets familiar to it and has no fear of water (Aquaphobia).

I am not guaranteeing 100% success rate in taking risks but it will definitely help you overcome your fears and reality shows like Fear Factor are solely based on this idealogy.

So, it’s better to face it then to flee from it.!

Shaking Things Up..!!

Change. Though a heavy word, but it is one of the most vital one and we don’t even get to know when it happens. It can have various interpretations like change in people with due course of time or the change we want to see in the people around us or some intentional changes in ourselves for our good.

My Final examinations have just concluded and I have 10 days of holidays before the new session commences and I have decided to dedicate these holidays to myself. Exams are really tiring and I really feel I had extended my limits this time. I have planned of various changes in my monotonous life which will definitely make it more fun.

“There is nothing permanent in life except change,” said philosopher Heraclitus. Others have called change or variety as ‘the spice of life’.

Changes in the daily pattern of life make it difficult to roll with the punches but some of them are really inevitable.

At the instant, I genuinely needed to devote some time for my personality development which requires me to read novels, write blogs and be more systematic in my daily working.

We hear talks pertaining ‘Change’ which have an extended range.

Changes that take place in nature we have little or no control over. We cannot, for instance, switch the time of tides, which anyway, wait for no one. The other kind of change is the one we witness either in political, social or other fields including the area of personal life. These are changes over which one can exercise some degree of control, changes which can be guided by oneself or others.

As far as our human and particularly Indian society is concerned, there are so many things that fall in the second category and need change, be it in caste system, condition of the poor, status of women, dowry system, spreading corruption, and so on. Not that anyone likes these things to continue. Often the dilemma is, ‘where to begin’?

Some how I feel the basic meaning of change is the most essential and should be used by us while these broader aspects are essentially the impacts of these small changes.

So to bring the curtain down for this extensive topic, I would say that changes are always for our good and those who resist it make very slow progress. The group of people who deny change are afraid of the after effects and not ready to except the challenges of life. It cannot be denied that change can cost a lot but it is also undeniable that it also brings prosperity if decisions are taken properly.


The Liebster Award

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I have a  great piece of news to be shared and that is I have been nominated for The Liebster Award by Irene A Waters. A big thanks to you Irene and being nominated by you is itself a source of inspiration and encouragement. I have loved reading your posts and I hope you prosper even more in your blogging journey.

The goal of the Liebster Award is to help generate attention toward new and upcoming bloggers; typically those with 200 followers or less.  Participating comes with some rules, but they’re fun ones!

The Rules are:

  • Thank the person who nominated you and link to their blog
  • (2) You must answer the 10 questions given to you by the nominee before you.
  • (3) Nominate 10 of your favorite blogs with fewer than 200 followers and notify them of their nomination.
  • (4) Come up with 10 questions for your nominees to answer.

The questions I was asked.

1) When did you start writing in general?

I started writing when I was 8 years old. Whenever there was any birthday of my family friends, I used to write a poem for them in the card I used to make. I remember when my family used to ask me read the poem aloud as they used to love it. The broken English and grammatical errors seem stupid to me now but my feelings were clear and honest. The beauty actually not comes from the words but the feelings with which it is written.
2) Why did you start this blog

I started this blog to increase my vocabulary and improve my writing skills. Actually one of my friends used to blog and I loved the idea of having a small space on the Internet of yours in which you can share whatever you want.
3) What is one of your talents?

I believe that I am a very good dancer. I have done a couple of group stage performances but I am not trained. I am also very creative in doing the art and craft related things.
4)What is a great memory from your past

Cinderella is the Disney princess I tried copying the most, in terms of clothing. That headband thing when she’s in her ballgown – I tried that and ended up breaking my favorite headband in the process. ._. The bow on the pink dress ^ I tried doing with a really long ribbon I had. I also tried making a green necklace. Oh, the joys of being a little kid.
5) What is your favourite season of the year?

My absolute favorite season is Autumn. I just love when the leaves change colors, there is a crispness in the air, and the smell of wood fires burning! These experiences bring me much comfort and a wonderful peace that I look forward to each year.
6) What makes you smile?

Whenever I get a day off from life’s fast pace, I spent solitude time in the park or my garden and enjoy the beauty of nature. During this time I smile to myself enjoying the vivid colors of life.

7) What do you think about the self-publishing vs. traditional publishing debate?

Publishing is a spectrum of choice, from traditional publishers who pay you, will handle most things for you and assume all risk in exchange for certain rights to your book, to self-publishing where you handle everything yourself, pay your own way, and adopt your own risk. And there’s a whole lot more choice in between those two poles.

8) What do you think the future of books is?

The Internet is full of e-books and if we want to enjoy them everywhere we need to buy an e-book reader too, which is not a cheap thing. For example, here’s Amazon, which sold more e-books than books in the past year. Their Kindle device became very popular amongst readers. The number of kindle e-books sold three times as many books on the Kindle so far this year as it did in the same period last year. I think e-books will be an integral part of everyone’s lives.

9) If you have some spare time, what do you do?

I spent time updating the blog and surf online. Otherwise I hang with my friends, watch TV or read novels.
10) Are you a planner or are you spontaneous?

I am more spontaneous. It is somewhat also because all my planning go in vain. History is evident that whenever I plan for anything the opposite happens.

The 10 nominees are ( roll drum ) :

For the rest 3 nominees, I’ll take a bit more time..

Here are your questions, people!  Have fun!

1.  What’s the best adventure you’ve ever had?

2.  Where do you see yourself in ten years?

3.  If you were an animal, what would you be?

4.  What’s the one food you can’t live without?

5.  What is your life motto?

6.  What is the strangest thing you’ve ever eaten?

7.  If you could go back and visit any time period, what time would you travel to and why?

8.  Name a gift you will never forget.

9.  What is your biggest addiction?

10.  Confess something.

My Date With Nature.!!

I have been quite tied up with my studies as Exams are round the corner. But yesterday I pushed myself and reluctantly decided to go to the park for a walk after my parents forced.

As I was walking past the road, my mind was thinking of all the algebraic expressions and chemical formulas and was strained with the burden of studies. I knew that my parents had sent me because they wanted me to relax and calm down a bit but every tick of the clock reminded me that I am wasting my time and that I am supposed to study.

Finally, I reached the park and then took a few rounds around. The weather was pleasant with a light breeze blowing. The soft sound of rustling of the trees and the chirp of birds disrupted my chain of thoughts. I was tired and I sat down on a bench. For the first 10 minutes, I was restless. Then I seemed to settle down a bit and was calmer now.

I observed the tall standing trees and the lush green grass ornated by vibrant flowers. I observed the honey bees sucking nectar from the flowers. Everything seemed so effortlessly beautiful. Everything in nature is always moving, always working. Even when animals and plants are in dormant phases, this rest is a kind of active measure for conserving energy. There is no hurry in nature yet it accomplishes all it tasks.

While I observed the trees, they said to me that patience is essential and while I observed the grass, it made me appreciate persistence. There was one old tree which has been there even before I was born. It has grown stronger by time which makes me think struggle isn’t a bad thing; it’s the foundation of vitality.

The lessons I received from the nature didn’t seem to end.

Grass portrays humility, as countless pairs of feet walk all over it every day.  It doesn’t complain or wither away.  In fact it usually springs back up, unharmed each time. How wonderful is it to walk barefoot on soft green grass? This is something that can be very healing to do and ‘earths’ you – giving you a feeling of replenishment and grounding in your being. Try it, and contemplate the humility of the grass.

A tree embodies the quality of self-offering.  It provides homes and shelter for animals, birds and insects, as well as offering shade and fruit to us humans. The Buddha sat beneath the great bodhi tree and reached his state of enlightenment there. Next time you walk through a park, breathe in the beauty of the trees and perhaps offer a moment of gratitude to them for teaching us the divine art of self-offering.

Each element said something.

My phone rang. It was mom. I got so lost in the beauty of nature that time had seemed to fly away. I went back home with a smile and a glowing calm on my face.

This experience had been very enriching and I think I’ll be doing this quite often now. Try it yourself once.

I am lost .!!


I am lost
In midst of people.
People, whom I know,
But they don’t even look back as I go.

I am lost
In the trap of emotions.
Emotions, which can defy anyone
and give you problems a ton.

I am lost
In the puzzle of life.
Life, which we get only once,
But we need to live it loud before time runs.

I am lost
In the burden of expectations.
Expectations in the eyes of my mom and dad
Because they want to see me become a successful lad.

I am lost even more as I write,
But I hold myself tight.
Because I know there will be a brighter morning
And will be able to come out of this maze shining.